For the first time….

And so fasting month went by just like that,and how I wish i could have done better.better.tsk.And waking up @ dawn-less than 5 times?Thats to complement the freezing of Fitness First’s trips due to Ramadhan.So I sent myself to concentration camps and ate lesser.Speaking of wish the trips should have resumed by today or tmr.

Yesterday was our first 2011 Raya.

First in almost everything.First Ramadhan in new house,first major spring cleaning,first time ramadhan/raya with a new addition to my family,first raya shopping for new home,first wall decal i’ve ever put up and first time i did the curtains all by myself.first time baking no-bake-choc-cornflakes,first blue festive lights,first damask bedsheet fitted to my bed.first matching BLUE outfits with mom dad and younger sis.I hate BLUE.first raya being a russian roulette-red lipstick on my lips-all thanks from MAC.damn i had no guts to wear red on lips especially..first raya with Leopard pwintss bag-from Ferragamo.First Raya pictures with DSLR.First Raya to know that he went for fishing on the night of raya.I could only giggle whenever i thought of that.whattt onlyyyyy!first time seeing people i didnt want to see(but they appeared) and first time losing 2 people and how i wish i could turn back time.

Major first raya without someone whom we all just lost.My late uncle.My cousin who is nowhere here.Granny’s place reeked of sadness and loss.just like how u reek of mini bar when you are drunk.I could feel the air,the ambience.and realized they werent there like they used to…Behind the smiles,sadness sat,stucked somewhere.

i realized time is valuable.so much of a value that we have to keep on chasing for it.and of course,appreciate the ones around you.

Randomly my playlist sings of Adele-Don’t You Remember and Eminem’s When You’re Gone.